*giggles*

You know what's funny to me?...

I cry because I'm pathetic... I cry about everything... Like...

~How I upset my boyfriend and that I fail at being a girl friend. 

~I cry because I can't fix things physically and some how it feels like it'll go away for just a little while longer until I cry again..

~I cry because I think about the time my boy friend resorted talking to another woman when he and I had problems... And I feel like he'll do it again.. Because I'm a piece of shit. (who wouldn't? it's okay, I've been cheated on... now I know why.)

~I cry because I'm the reason there's always a problem.

~I cry because I'm the reason there's no more romance.

~I cry because I'm weak.

~I cry because I'm an ugly piece of shit.

~I cry because I can't seen to do anything right.

~I cry because he probably thinks about other women.

~I cry because I'm not pretty.

~I cry because I will never be good enough.

~I cry because I can't just suck it up.

~I cry because I have nothing going for me.

~I cry because I can't make any situation any better.. Only worse.

~I cry because there's nothing else I find myself better at doing. :*(

♥

Oh How Beautiful You Feel When Your World Burns In Hell...

I feel like shit.
I haven't been sleeping much and I don't want to sleep when I am tired.
I've fallen back into my eating disorder and I have no control.
There's enough on my mind to tip the scale alone.

I'm depressed again. But not that kind of depressed. The kind of depressed where you don't know what to do... So you think and wait... And do nothing.

Is this the path I'm going again..?

♥

Two Year Anniversary!

Today is my two year anniversary with Seth :)

I've never been soo happy with someone. He's always there for me. He loves me to death and I love him with all my heart. I see myself being with him forever. He's the one that keeps me on my feet and helps back up when I fall into my depression. I never want to be without him. He's my world. ♥

I love him soo much.
I couldn't be any happier.
I never thought I'd find someone like him.


♥